Hello everyone,

I am here to surround myself with positive brain inforcement. I have been in what they call the "dark night of the soul". It has been a tough and humiliating process the paranoid thoughts during this was awful.
It all started with an assault on me that was never resolved by law, which I take responcibility for now. I went into a tail spin blaming, and just plain lost my darn mind. This made my intro into career suicide, loss of home, horse, filed BK, husband got really sick, no insurance, now co-pay of $5,000 a month with no job, and finally now my dear mother has cancer. A very rare meleonoma located in a very rare place.

I cannot be selfish anymore and play the "blame game", and the worse thing I have ever done to myself is allow me to become vaccumed up into the darkness of the mind where nothing makes sense. I got an email that really impacted it was an obituarary about commen sense dieing. Enough about the ignorant road I took I am here to start the healing of all the damage I have done to me.

It is nice to meet you all and I cannot wait to start breathing again.

Peace